Perceptions

Has there ever been a time when you have known someone then all of the sudden you find out that they are not who you have perceived them to be? Your perception of them changed?

Well that has happened to me recently. There are a few folks that I will not mention, have just taken me for a trip LOL as I have told peeps. Around me they are just normal people then you hear by word of mouth they are a completely different person who you perceived them to be. But the dilemma is how do you act once you have been previewed to information, do you judge them? do you act differently or carry on that nothing has happened? It's mind boggling and also intriguing how people play the part.

Last night I got a good wake up call from my peers in my class and also a dear friend of mine, at this point in age, its not all about pleasing folks and the you don't have to always be everyone's friend. But I feel it's in my nature to always save people, but I am realizing that one it's not my job to save people but to do what's right.

Transitions

Had a little love, but I spread it thin
Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bad name for my game around town
Tore up my heart, and shut it down

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one but me
And that's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

I see friends around from time to time
When their ladies let them slip away
And when they ask me how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one to be
Is it really hard to see

Why I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong

These are the lyrics to John Mayer's song "Perfectly Lonely."

Prior to John's recent douche moves, he really hit home with these lyrics. This is how I am feeling at the moment. I think that every since I have turned 25 I realized that it could be ok to not be in a relationship with someone. It's best to not look for love but rather let it find you. I could be feeling this way because it is Valentine's Day season, who knows. But I could say that its alright to be perfectly lonely, because I don't belong to anyone and nobody belongs to me. I have seen all parts of the spectrum where people are in great relationships, those who are not treated how they should be, people who are with the person for the wrong reasons, people who are in relationships just to be in one and then in a relationship knowing that the other is a bitch or a douche. Why should I put myself through that. Being that I grew up in a single parent household - I have always had the mindset that I need to make sure that I have a strong relationship with the woman that I love so that our child can have the luxury of having both parents and active part in their lives.

So many things are happening in my life right now - finishing up grad school, getting ready to become an uncle, possibly relocating and starting a new job, prepping for interviews and attempting to eat healthier. I at times have just felt so overwhelmed. LOL but I have been feelin deep at times. As I am writing this I am jammin to some Sade (good stuff it is). I'm feeling a sense of desire just to know what its like to have a special someone.

groovin'

so i think that I am finally reachin' that point in my life where I only want to listen to "throwbacks" (music from back when I was younger or what was played a lot in my house growin up).

Currently on my pandora playlist I have the following stations:

Lenny Kravitz

Jason Mraz (Awesome!!!)

Sade (Awesome!!!)

Justin Timberlake

Beyonce

Motown

Whitney Houston

John Mayer

U2

As you can see I have a very eclectic taste in music .

I remember when my momma used to tell me - "Boy you don't know good music, this stuff you listening to isn't real music." that would be followed by me sayin - "Yeah Ok." then I would get into a debate on why a particular artist is hot. Funny how now I am havin these conversations w/ my students. It amazes me how passionate they are about their music.

I can understand that though b/c music can paint a picture of an individual. Not sayin that you should judge a person from their music taste, but you can get a pretty good grasp on their personality. The big debate that I tease them on all the time is on a particular female artist who is the hot thing at the moment w/ a ridiculous name and shall remain nameless :)

for me some of her lyrics make no sense non-whatsoever.

What happened to music w/great lyrics and melody? there are a few artists out there I feel are true artist and are not just an entity: Lenny Kravitz, Jason Mraz, John Mayer, Justin Timberlake, U2, Maroon 5, Coldplay, Whitney Houston (shut up :P), just from the top of my head.

Music to me plays such an important part in a person's life. I will close this with song's I feel that are the soundtrack to my life:

1. "Nothin' But Love" - Whitney Houston
2. "Fix You" - Coldplay
3. "Back At Your Door" - Maroon 5
4. "Beautiful Mess" Jason Mraz
5. "Song For A Friend" - Jason Mraz
6. "Beautiful Day" - U2
7. "Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own" - U2
8. "A Message" - Coldplay
9. "Pick Up Off The Floor" -MIKA
10. 'Pieces Don't Fit Anymore" - James Morrison
11. "Songs About Jane" (Full Album) - Maroon 5 - Just about every freakin' song on there has describe my feelings @ one point or another
12. "Better Days - Janet Jackson
13. "Can't Help It" - Michael Jackson
14. "Geek In The Pink" Jason Mraz
15. "One" - Mary J. Blige & U2
16. "Something's Missing" - John Mayer
17. Heartbreak Warefare" John Mayer
18. "St. Patrick's Day" - John Mayer
19. "Tell Me No" - Whitney Houston
20. "Chariot" - Gavin DeGraw

I think that is enough for now maybe I will do disc 2 later :)

all up in my biz'ness

"why they all in my business?, it's just too ridiculous, I can't get no sleep!" - from a song :)

you know there are some folks out there that just try to be all up in people's business. there are those who are wondering who are, who you doin' and what you be doin' and when you do it. am I on trial or somethin?

folks can't seem to just let things be the way they are and just that. recently, I just had someone pretty much put me on trial. I can understand if they were tryin to get to know me, but for those of you who know me well, I tend to keep how I feel about things to myself or to those who I have a closer relationship with. there are those who just put all their bizness out there, well I ain't like that LOL. if I want you to know something - I will let you know haha.

here we go...

So this is my first blog.

In the back of my head I have wanted to do this, my god-sister meg has one which is hilarious! But I never felt as if I would have something to talk about. So this will be may space where I will just speak my piece on stuff random thoughts or just some funny sh*t.

I must say that the name is kinda clever being that its a play off reese's pieces :)

We shall see what comes of this

payce / tise